Apparently I Took A Year Off

It's funny how easy it is to put things off.  "I'll wash those dishes tonight after supper" (yes, I have thought that today), "Harrison can get his nails trimmed in a couple days", "I will start exercising next week", etc.  Sometimes we follow through on those delays and other times they become longer and longer.  That's kind of what happened with my writing here.  I didn't intend to take a year off, but it seems that I have.  I had things I wanted to write about and share, but I didn't because I kept putting it off for several reasons.

One reason was quite honestly time.  It has been interesting and wonderful becoming Harrison's mom.  I have learned a lot and one of those things is that not all babies nap the same.  I hadn't really thought about this before.  Harrison didn't start taking longer and more consistent naps until the last couple of months.  It wasn't uncommon for me to lay him down for a nap and start a 25 minute workout only to have him start crying 20 minutes in.  Oof...baby snuggles are wonderful, but sweaty baby snuggles are not always ideal.  That being said, while I have been staying home with Harrison, I often felt there were days where I didn't have time to exercise, eat, shower, or other basic things let alone write on here.

Another reason related to this would have to be laziness or lack of desire.  It takes time to write and express yourself while trying not to sound terribly foolish.  Oftentimes in the last year I haven't wanted to spend my spare time trying.  There were other things I was interested in doing, or if I was motivated to get something done there always seemed to be something more pressing (like Harrison's baby book--man what a project!).

There are two more reasons I can think of for why I haven't been writing.  One is the number of blogs and bloggers out there.  I don't really fancy myself a "blogger".  I am not cutesy, I am not full of cooking, cleaning, parenting, living, or any other tips.  I'm just a girl living the life God has given me and trying to do it to the best of my ability.  I didn't want my writing here to seem like I was being a "blogger".  I would rather be more of a reflector.  I want to write about some of what is happening in our lives and what I have been thinking about and I've decided I can do that without worrying about trying to fit into a 'blogger' mold.

The final reason I haven't been writing has been concern for others.  I have found as I have gotten older that the reality of life in this world can be really hard.  I know there are so many people who are dissatisfied with where they are in life.  They may be unhappy with where they are living, working, or with their lives just not progressing as they had hoped and dreamed.  My life right now is in our home with Harrison.  Not that I don't get out, I do, but most of my living is done here and I didn't want that to make others sad  when I write about aspects of this life I'm living that they may not have themselves.

All that said, I'm going to try to write more often (Ha!  It would be tricky to write less often than I have been!).  I'm not committing to a number of times per month or anything like that, I'm just going to legitimately try to write more often.  More than anything else this is a place I can reflect on what's going on in my life and share it with anyone who is interested.  If that's you, great!  If that's not you, that's all right too.

A picture from Harrison's first birthday...since it's been a year!